My plane landed over fields of snow and I felt so happy - I really do love being in London. It's funny because the first time I was here, I really didn't like it. This time though, it holds some kind of magic for me. I feel similarly about London to how I have felt about Sydney. What wonderful, huge cities, with so many different people, so much history and politics, hidden laneways and underground mazes. I feel excited and inspired here. The cold doesn't dampen my motivation here.
So, first I need to apply for a National Insurance Number, and get a bank account. Then I need to find a job, and somewhere to live. These things feel exciting, and not stressful at all.
I still want to travel. I still have that itch. I want to go to Turkey next I think. The amazing thing about Europe is that I really can go anywhere. I think my goal is to go pretty much everywhere.
I've had lots of emotions the last few days. Thinking about this journey I am on. I've thought about what I was doing this time last year, how things have changed for me in such unexpected ways. There is still a huge part of me that grieves for the life I used to have. My relationship, my garden, my neighbours, my job, my home. It has been such a change for me.
The very beginning of this journey to the other side of the world began with me feeling like I had lost absolutely everything. It took me so long to stop crying. In fact, I still cry. But at some point I stopped crying as much. And I decided instead of crying, I am going to see the world. I also decided that while I see the world I am going to figure out some things about myself. I'm going to spend some time with myself.
Today I am pensive and calm, but I feel good. I really think London does good things to me.
xxx
So, first I need to apply for a National Insurance Number, and get a bank account. Then I need to find a job, and somewhere to live. These things feel exciting, and not stressful at all.
I still want to travel. I still have that itch. I want to go to Turkey next I think. The amazing thing about Europe is that I really can go anywhere. I think my goal is to go pretty much everywhere.
I've had lots of emotions the last few days. Thinking about this journey I am on. I've thought about what I was doing this time last year, how things have changed for me in such unexpected ways. There is still a huge part of me that grieves for the life I used to have. My relationship, my garden, my neighbours, my job, my home. It has been such a change for me.
The very beginning of this journey to the other side of the world began with me feeling like I had lost absolutely everything. It took me so long to stop crying. In fact, I still cry. But at some point I stopped crying as much. And I decided instead of crying, I am going to see the world. I also decided that while I see the world I am going to figure out some things about myself. I'm going to spend some time with myself.
Today I am pensive and calm, but I feel good. I really think London does good things to me.
xxx
Loved this entry :)
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